The silence of the Hürtgen Forest was heavier than the shelling.

For three days, the artillery had pounded the treeline until the earth looked like the surface of the moon, churned into a freezing slurry of gray mud and splintered pine. Now, the guns had stopped. The Germans had pulled back to the ridge, leaving the valley to the dead and the victorious.

Private First Class Jack “Sully” Sullivan sat on a stump, scraping the mud off his boots with a bayonet. He was twenty-two, from a corn farm outside of Des Moines, Iowa. But looking at his face—hollow-cheeked, eyes rimmed with the thousand-yard stare—you’d guess he was forty.

“Souvenir time, Sully?”

Sully looked up. It was Miller, a fresh replacement who still had the shine on his helmet. Miller was grinning, holding up a German Luger pistol he’d pulled off a corpse near the creek.

“Careful with that, kid,” Sully grunted, spitting a stream of tobacco juice into the snow. “Booby traps. Jerry likes to leave a grenade under the good stuff.”

“It’s clean,” Miller said, turning the gun over. “Going to trade this for a bottle of cognac in Paris. You coming?”

“Yeah. In a minute.”

Sully stood up. His joints popped. The cold in the Ardennes didn’t just sit on your skin; it got into your marrow. He walked slowly through the debris field. He wasn’t looking for guns. He was looking for watches. A good German watch could buy a lot of things. It could buy silence. It could buy a warm bed for a night.

He spotted a patch of field grey uniform half-buried in a drift of snow near a shattered oak tree.

Sully approached cautiously. He poked the body with the toe of his boot. No movement.

He knelt down. The German was lying on his back, eyes open, staring up at the leaden sky. He was young. They were all getting younger these days. This one couldn’t have been more than seventeen. Peach fuzz on his upper lip. His helmet was too big for his head, the chinstrap hanging loose.

“Sorry, Fritz,” Sully muttered. It was a ritual apology. He didn’t hate them individually. He hated Them—the faceless grey wall trying to kill him. But this? This was just a boy who zigged when he should have zagged.

Sully patted down the pockets. He found a pack of cigarettes (stale), a lighter (broken), and a wallet.

He opened the wallet. No money. Just an ID card—Heinrich Weber, Gefreiter—and a photograph.

Sully looked at the photo. It was a black-and-white portrait of a woman standing in front of a farmhouse. She looked sturdy, worn down by work, wearing a floral apron. She wasn’t smiling, but her eyes were kind. She looked exactly like Mrs. Gable, the woman who ran the bakery back in Des Moines.

“Your mama, huh?” Sully whispered.

He started to shove the wallet into his pocket—the leather was good quality—when his fingers brushed against paper.

Tucked behind the ID card was a folded envelope. It wasn’t sealed. It was stamped and addressed, ready to go, but the boy had died before the mail truck came.

Sully pulled it out. The handwriting was neat, slanted, crying out with the penmanship drills of a strict schoolteacher.

An Frau Helga Weber. Bavaria.

Sully held the letter. He felt a strange curiosity. Usually, he tossed the paper. But the face in the photo haunted him.

He looked over his shoulder. “Hey! Liebman!”

Corporal Liebman was sitting near the radio jeep, smoking a Lucky Strike. Liebman was from Brooklyn, the son of a tailor. He spoke Yiddish at home and German in the war. He was the platoon’s unofficial translator.

Liebman walked over, his boots squelching in the mud. “Whatcha got, Sully? Find the Amber Room?”

“Just a letter,” Sully said, handing it over. “Read it for me.”

Liebman took the letter. He looked at the dead boy. His expression hardened. Liebman had family in Poland he hadn’t heard from in three years. He had no love for the uniform this boy wore.

“Probably hate mail,” Liebman spat. “Talking about how many Americans he killed. Or how great the Führer is.”

“Just read it,” Sully said.

Liebman unfolded the paper. He adjusted his glasses. He took a drag of his cigarette and exhaled the smoke through his nose, preparing to read the vile propaganda of the enemy.

“My dearest Mama,” Liebman began, translating on the fly.

He paused. He squinted at the next line.

“Well?” Sully asked.

Liebman’s shoulders dropped an inch. The hardness around his eyes softened, replaced by a confused frown.

“My dearest Mama,” Liebman read, his voice losing its Brooklyn edge and becoming quieter. “I hope this letter finds you before the first snow. I worry about your arthritis when the frost comes. Did Uncle Hans fix the roof on the barn? Please make sure he uses the tar paper, not just the wood, or the cow will freeze.”

Sully shifted his weight. He looked down at the boy. The roof. The cow. Sully’s dad had written him last week complaining about the roof on the silo.

“Go on,” Sully said.

Liebman continued, his voice steady now, respectful of the words.

“Do not worry about me, Mama. I am doing very well. The food here is excellent. We have meat every day, and plenty of bread. It is warm in the barracks, and the officers treat us like their own sons. It is not like the stories. It is an adventure.”

Liebman stopped reading. He looked up at Sully.

They both looked down at the body.

Heinrich Weber was a skeleton wrapped in wool. His cheeks were sunken from malnutrition. His uniform hung off him like a sack. He hadn’t seen a piece of meat in weeks. His boots were held together with wire. He had frozen to death as much as he had bled to death.

“He’s lying,” Liebman whispered.

“Yeah,” Sully said. His throat felt tight. “He’s lying.”

Liebman looked back at the paper. “There’s more.”

“Read it.”

“I dream of your apple cake, Mama. The one with the cinnamon crumbs on top. When I come home, I want to eat a whole one by myself. Tell Greta I am saving my pay to buy her a ribbon for her hair. I am safe. I am happy. I love you. Your son, Heinrich.”

Liebman lowered the letter. The wind whistled through the shattered trees, a lonely, mournful sound.

Sully reached out and took the letter back. His hands were shaking.

I am safe. I am happy.

Sully reached into his own breast pocket. He pulled out the letter he had written to his mother two days ago, just before the assault on the ridge.

He knew exactly what it said. Dear Ma, don’t worry. I’m eating good. The Army takes care of us. It’s not dangerous here, we’re mostly just guarding trucks. I’ll be home for the harvest.

He had written it while sitting in a foxhole filled with freezing water, listening to mortar rounds walk toward his position, terrified he wouldn’t live to see the sun rise.

“It’s the same letter,” Sully whispered.

“What?” Liebman asked.

“Nothing,” Sully said. He looked at the dead boy. Heinrich wasn’t a Nazi monster. He wasn’t a stormtrooper. He was a kid who missed his mom’s apple cake. He was a kid who lied to protect his mother’s heart, just like Sully did.

The distance between them—the political ideology, the ocean, the language—vanished. All that was left were two sons trying to keep their mothers from crying.

“What are you gonna do?” Liebman asked. “Burn it?”

Sully looked at the letter. If he burned it, Heinrich’s mother would never know. She would just get a telegram in a month saying Missing in Action. She would spend the rest of her life waiting for the door to open.

“No,” Sully said. “She needs to know.”

“You can’t mail it, Sully,” Liebman said, gesturing around at the destruction. ” The Reichspost isn’t exactly making pickups in this sector.”

Sully looked at the envelope. He looked at the address. Bavaria.

“The Red Cross,” Sully said. “The prisoner exchange trucks. They take mail sometimes.”

“That’s a long shot,” Liebman said. “And even if it gets there… the kid is dead. The letter says he’s safe. It’s cruel.”

“It’s not cruel,” Sully said firmly. “It’s the last thing he wanted her to know. He wanted her to think he died warm. He wanted her to think he died full.”

Sully pulled out his own wallet. It was worn leather, shaped to his hip. He opened it.

He had twenty dollars. American money. It was useless here, mostly. But in post-war Germany? Or anywhere in Europe? Dollars were gold. Dollars bought food when the local currency was worthless trash.

Sully took the twenty dollars. It was two weeks’ pay. It was the money he was saving for a steak dinner in Paris.

He folded the bills flat. He slid them inside the envelope, tucking them behind the letter about the apple cake.

“What are you doing?” Liebman asked, eyes wide. “That’s twenty bucks, Sully! You crazy?”

“He said he was saving his pay for his sister’s hair ribbon,” Sully said, his voice thick. “He didn’t have any pay, Liebman. His pockets were empty.”

Sully licked the adhesive on the envelope. It tasted bitter. He sealed it shut.

“It’s not for the enemy,” Sully said, meeting Liebman’s gaze. “It’s for the mother.”

Liebman looked at him for a long moment. Then, slowly, the Corporal reached into his own pocket. He pulled out a chocolate bar—a Hershey’s Tropical ration. It was rock hard and didn’t taste much like chocolate, but it was calories. It was survival.

“Put this in the package,” Liebman said. “If you can find a bag big enough.”

Sully managed a small, tired smile. “Thanks, Doc.”


Sully walked two miles back to the rear echelon, to the holding pen where the MPs were guarding a group of surrendering Germans.

He found a German medic, a man wearing a red cross armband, sitting on a crate, smoking a cigarette with shaking hands.

Sully walked up to him. The medic flinched, expecting a blow.

Sully held up the letter.

“You,” Sully said. He pointed to the medic, then to the letter, then to the east, toward the German lines. “Mail.”

The medic looked at the letter. He saw the German handwriting. He looked up at Sully, confused.

“Post?” the medic asked in broken English.

“Ja,” Sully said. “Post. For… Mutter.”

He handed the letter to the medic.

The German felt the thickness of the envelope. He felt the stiff paper of the American currency inside. He looked at Sully. He didn’t ask why. He saw the look in the American’s eyes—the universal exhaustion of the survivor.

The medic nodded. He placed the letter carefully in his inside breast pocket, buttoning it shut. He tapped his chest over his heart.

“I take,” the medic said. “I promise.”

Sully nodded. He reached into his pocket and pulled out the chocolate bar Liebman had given him. He tossed it to the medic.

“For the road,” Sully said.


Sully walked back to the front line. The sun was setting, casting long, purple shadows across the snow. The Hürtgen Forest looked almost beautiful in the twilight, if you squinted hard enough to blur out the craters.

He found his foxhole. He sat down and opened a tin of cold beans.

He thought about a farmhouse in Bavaria. He imagined a woman opening that letter in a few weeks, or months.

She would read about the food he didn’t have. She would read about the warmth he didn’t feel. She would cry.

But then, she would find the money. And maybe, just maybe, she would buy that ribbon for the sister. And she would bake an apple cake. And for a moment, she would think her son died happy.

It was a lie. But it was the only mercy left in the world.

Sully pulled out his own writing pad. He picked up his pencil.

Dear Ma,

I’m doing okay. I’m eating good. Don’t worry about the cold, I got plenty of blankets. I met a nice fella today from Germany. We didn’t talk much, but we understood each other.

Save me a slice of pie.

Love, Jack.

Sully folded the paper. He lay back against the frozen dirt, listening to the wind. For the first time in a long time, he didn’t feel like a soldier. He felt like a son. And somewhere in the dark, quiet forest, he hoped Heinrich was finally warm.